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Chapter 20: Epilogue


A few evenings later, I am driving Highway 2 to Playa Bagdad, the northernmost point on Mexico’s Gulf coast. A powerful cold front has forced its way through the soporific humidity, dropping temperatures by fifty degrees in one day. On the way across the barren salt marshes, a mercilessly frigid north wind batters my truck, the only vehicle on the causeway. An early darkness falls under a leaden sky. At the end of the highway, the thundering surf threatens to wipe out the dunes on which the beach concessions are built. Not a light burns besides my headlights, suddenly weak and powerless against the blackly threatening night. From the parking lot, I catch glimpses of foam scudding across the road, probing fingers of surf reaching the edge of light, vanishing.

At the end of the pavement, the dune road vanishes into the surf. I turn my headlights off and step out into the night. A gust blows a shower of salt spray over me. The waves are whitely visible in the dusk, raging at the confines of gravity. A bolt of primal fear shoots through me, creature of the land. A rogue wave could come out of the dark like an avenging angel and sweep me and my truck right off this delicate spit of sand. I get back in and make a U-turn, wheels digging a little in the sand, concentration total, keep up the momentum without turning too sharp, turning too wide, giving too much fuel, letting off too much. Then pavement, and the long highway back to my cold and dreary flophouse room in Matamoros, which now seems a beacon of safe shelter. It is snowing all along the Gulf Coast northward, icy highways for a thousand miles; I am trapped in this ugly border town for two days at least. In such a way do most wonderful beginnings reach their natural end.